My Condolenses ...
I am so sorry for you loss ...
If you are experiencing physical shock, you will need to keep yourself warm by wrapping yourself in a blanket, drinking hot beverages &/or wearing warm clothing or a winter robe ...
The cold feeling of shock is different from being outdoors in frigid temperature; it has a strangeness to it ...
It involves unexplained shakiness or trembling, queashy stomach, anxiety, difficulty sleepling, etc ...
Shock, in general, can last as long as 6 months or a much shorter time ...
My husband was killed instantly in a car collision; his head was crushed. A few hours prior to that we were enjoying a family luncheon. I was not able to do any grief work till the shock wore off ...
I began w/reading "Journey of Souls" & "Destiny of Souls" by Michael Newton including "Hello from Heaven" by Judy & Bill Guggenheim ...
They were a tremendous help, I read each of them daily for over 2yrs till I reached the answers I was looking for as well as each my mind, body & soul accepted them as life sustaining truths ...
The mention of these books could be a starting point if you choose them, otherwise, I suugest you explore other books on the afterlife ...
My husband came to me in an ADC (after death communication) at the exact time of his death ...
It did not relieve my grief, however, it lead me back to work on my Jungian faith to find my answers as well as strengthen it by engaging in serious in-depth study of synchronicity, past life, afterlife & ADCs ...
Not everyone is receptive to telepathic ADCs or have the intuitive ability to recognize signs from loved ones ...
Desperation creates chaos that can block reception ...
Never feel you are doing something wrong or feel badly that you are not getting signs or any type of communication ...
Work on developing your intuition ...
Grief/loss of a loved one is a personal journey for which only you can find the answers for ...
Your answers will be what you will draw upon/recall whenever you need comfort from your loss - they will remain w/you your entire life & will be needed for each death you experience ...
Please do consider a grief support group such as Grief Share (check their website); many churches have their own ...
Sudden deaths are the most difficult to come to terms with as well as recover from ...
Hope this helps ...
Take care ...